Where's The Baby?

"Some people care too much, I think it's called love."

Went to my doctor this morning. Receptionist laughed (with me) when I waddled in :o) I can hardly walk. The nurse commented on how firm and tight my tummy is - there is no more room to stretch. I am as big as I can get. Had another NST today. Baby was pretty sleepy when we started, but after some peanut m&m's, baby woke right up. Normally the heart rate is in the 130's while resting and 150's when awake and moving. Today (after the candy) baby's heart rate was in the 150's while resting and 170's while moving. Doctor did a check and baby's head is in position & down low. I am about 1 cm dilated. He sees no reason for me to have to wait until next week if baby doesn't start coming on his/her own. I will go back in on Friday if I am still pregnant and do one more NST, then we will make plans for this little one's birthday. I would like to just "go" on my own and not be induced, so I am praying that baby comes this week. If baby is still not here by the end of the week - I am not going to argue with inducing. My nights are very long and uncomfortable and walking around trying to take care of 6 other children is getting diffcult. Just doing one little thing around our home exhausts me. Even driving is getting hard. Last Thursday on the way home from Rachel's gymnastics, I had to pull over and rest, drink some water.
Tom and I are pretty sure we're having a boy, but there is a chance it's a girl. We have a boy's name picked out, but not a girl's name. I think we'll just bring along a list, along with the meanings, and if it's a girl we'll see what name she looks like. But even then, you never know. Leah was born with very thick, dark hair and dark eyes - within a few months, she was bright blonde with bright blue eyes. (Still is.) I'm sure the right name will come along if/when needed.
When I got home from my doctor appointment today, my 3 yr old and 6 yr old daughters were walking around with dolls stuck in their shirts. They were pretending to be pregnant. It was cute until they started acting out that they were in labor - then it was a little weird and kind of disturbing. My 7 yr old son was yelling "Push! Push!" Maybe I've been watching too many daytime birthing shows. The only time I ever watch those shows is when I'm pregnant. I even emailed the show "A Baby Story" when I was around 20 weeks pregnant. They sent me an application. I talked to my doctor about it and he was fine, but wasn't sure if the hospital would allow cameras. Then the more I thought about it, the more I really didn't like the idea of a camera man in the delivery room with me and Tom. Now that I am so close to giving birth, I'm glad I chose not to do it. For me, it's too personal and too precious to share like that. Our own video and photos will do.
So I should be holding the newest little member of our family this week. I can't wait to see what he/she looks like. I can't wait to have those little fingers wrap around my finger. I think our children are all ready too. My oldest 2 have been commenting on Mommy's Mood Swings. One moment I'm singing along to a song and the next moment I'm upset about crumbs on the floor. They usually start pretending to "freak out" with me about the crumbs until I start laughing. Sarah might not be too happy at first. She made me sleep in her room last night. Very mommy-clingy right now. Most of our children have been like this before a new baby - then they become daddy's little buddy when baby arrives.
I have many people praying for me and baby. I have many friends wanting to help at this time and after baby is born. I feel very blessed to have the family and friends that God has surrounded me with. Life is good :o)