Enough Movement?

"Always Kiss Me Goodnight"

On Friday Leah was watching my tummy roll around and yelling "It's Alive!" as she giggled. She is so excited for the new baby to be born. Yesterday I got some cute video of Sarah talking about being a big girl and being a big sister while she and I had dinner together at the table. She was using a big girl cup to drink her milk instead of her sippy cup. I'm still not sure if she knows what's about to happen to her little world. And today Noah was helping me feel the baby move by poking at him/her and trying to name parts.
Which brings me to why I am blogging at 11:00 at night. Trying to figure out what to do. Baby hasn't been wiggling around like s/he usually does. There is still movement and I'm just trying to figure out if it's just smaller and slower because I am 38 weeks tomorrow and the space is tight or if there is a problem. With Sarah being born early because of my placenta not working well towards the end, it makes me worry. I ate some dinner, drank some milk, and had some ice cream. I've been drinking lots of water and I soaked in the tub for awhile. Now I am sitting in my rocking chair next to my bed not sure if I should go to sleep or not. Everyone else in our home is asleep.
I'm praying for more of a "sign" to know what to do. While I am writing, baby keeps nudging me so I'm feeling a little more relaxed. My bag is packed. My home is fairly in order. My wonderful neighbors are all "on call" for baby time. I am prepared if I feel like we should go.
My body feels ready, but my mind and heart are having a little difficulty with the reality of not being pregnant anymore. The last nine months went by so fast - I feel that way now. Amazing. I am looking forward to meeting this little one and holding him/her in my arms. I love how babies smell. I love their little feet. I love holding them over my shoulder as they snuggle up and sleep.
Maybe I should get a little sleep and see how I feel in the morning. Baby has been moving for me while I've been sitting here. Sarah has been waking me up at 3:00am almost every night, so maybe even just a little cat nap would do me good. I think Sarah is helping me prepare for being up with a newborn. (Oh - that was a wonderful wiggle baby just gave me.) I'm pretty comfortable with how much s/he is moving now. Maybe I just needed to slow down and pay attention. Good baby - and good night.